Monday, December 12, 2005

I'm not broken!

I really think I did actually ovulate. Amazing! Two days of + OPKs, the third day was negative, and the next day my temperature skyrocketed (98.5!). Even if nothing comes of it (which is the outcome I'm expecting, although obviously not the one I'm hoping for), it's still so nice to have my hormones somewhat back on track.

I've spent the weekend mulling over what might have done it, and come up with three possibilities:

1. My system was "kick-started" by the gonadotropins.

2. Acupuncture (been going weekly)

3. Not stepping on a scale for three weeks (until this morning), and gaining an extra 4 pounds:-p

And then there's always the theory propounded by someone whom I excitedly told about my ovaries' achievements:

4. Not so "tense".

hahahahhaha. I love that one. It boggles my mind. It is so completely illogical - why on earth would I have been "tense" when I first went off the pill? I had no reason to suspect there would be a problem. WHY do so many people think that all you have to do is "relax" to get pregnant??? I don't know many people (if any) who are not happy and excited and imagine they'll get pregnant in the first few months, when they first start trying. So why is it that after a year, two years, three..., all of a sudden relaxing is suppose to help?

18 comments:

elle said...

Wow, Nico, that is great news! It's nice to know, every once in a while, that your body is capable of doing what it's supposed to do. Good job on the relaxation front ;-)

Emma B. said...

I am so pleased for you :). Even if you don't get pregnant, well, a little non-brokenness does wonders for the soul.

As for the whys of it, Dr. Yacht (the other main doctor at my clinic) is a big believer in the kickstart theory, and at one point he said that it might be worth going back to Clomid or letrozole after my first gonadotropin cycle, because sometimes it does seem to work like that. He said something about it maturing the theca and granulosa cells, which kinda makes sense if you think about it. It takes 85 days for a pre-antral follicle to turn into a preovulatory one, so maybe all that extra FSH and LH sensitized them enough to respond to your own hormones.

Of course, he also thought that the estrogen alone might kickstart me, so YMMV. Still, I know it's something we've sort of had in mind -- if the ART road doesn't work out, we may give Clomid or Letrozole another go before giving up entirely.

Dooneybug said...

Whatever it was...I'm so glad you ovulated!! Yay!

Sounds like you timed things well too.

Molly said...

Hooray for ovulation! Hope lots of sex was had. So, what are we at for waiting to find out the results of your sexcapade? 10 days?

NCD said...

I HATE the 'just relax' comment!!! My last boss, when I had to tell him about my fertility treatments, told me to just relax. And he was an MD! He said that he and his wife took a long time to get pregnant and that they finally went on vacation and got pregnant, AFTER 4 YEARS! I don't consider that a 'success' I consider that 'even a blind squirrel gets a nut, now and then'.

I can't imagine just waiting it out and doing nothing to help forward my situation for 4 years. I understand that I needed to be in a good mental place to go through the whole treatment gamut but that is so I don't have a complete mental breakdown.

I have to say I could go on and on about this topic forever if anyone let me. Makes me crazy.

Nico said...

Molly, I think I'm going to wait at least 14-15 days (assuming I make it that far) - I found with my last cycle that I enjoyed the extra few days of not knowing for sure it was negative. I like dragging out the hopeful phase as long as I can! Knowing earlier than that doesn't do anything except make me miserable.

Alexa said...

Congratulations, Nico!
I don't know how I will wait 14 days to find out what happened...but even if you are not pregnant, this is a big, big thing. Well done, Nico's Ovaries.

Manuela said...

Hey there! So THIS is where you hang out... can't believe it's taken me so long to come visit.

And yes... to mirror the others... this is GREAT news.

Mari said...

Nico - I'm so happy that you ovulated on your own...It is refreshing when your body actually works the way it should!

Those that make the comments 'just relax' don't get it and never will.

Anonymous said...

woo-hoo! I am so happy that your hormones are getting back to normal. And I think you look great, 4lbs could be just water if your hormones are acting the way they should again anyway. And its great to have you back on the team :) I really missed having your gung-ho-we-can-do-it attitude!!!

--alicia

April said...

That's fantastic news. It's so nice to feel "normal" (hahahahahahahaha) even for just a bit.

Lori said...

What great news! And I'm totally dismissing the "not so tense" theory.
It's nonsense!

thalia said...

That's great news, Nico. And by the way, didn't you know they've amended current murder laws to allow you to shoot any proponent of the 'just relax' theory. Honestly. I saw it on Fox News!

pixi said...

Not so tense! How would that work exactly? Squeezing your abdominal muscles so tightly that your follicles are sealed off? I mean ??????

Good news, though, that you're seeing some type of action. How cool would it be if you were pg already?? If not though (and I'll keep my fingers crossed that you are), hopefully this means that you're headed in the right direction.

14 days. So that's around xmas?

Nico said...

Yup, right around Christmas. I'm thinking that I won't test until afterwards though. I mean it would be fantastic if I got a + on Christmas day, not so much if it were -. Still torn. Will see how I feel closer to the time...

Nicole said...

Congratulations Nico! That is fab news! It'll certainly keep you going for a while anyway...

The 4lbs may be water weight. When I was doing all those injections I gained about 5lbs of bloat and water weight. I felt like a cow! Now that I am off that I have dropped it by drinking a lot of water and eating healthily.

And don't forget in this 2WW, "Just relax!" Mwahahahaha!!!!

zhl said...

What great news. So glad that you've got a chance.

Like you, I wait to test in order to prolong the hopeful, joyful time. So do what you think is best.

p.s. I love the law Thalia mentioned. Finally, something I want to learn on Fox News.

mermaidgrrrl said...

If being tense stopped people from getting pregnant, then what about all the babies conceived by rape during war? It truly is a BS comment.