Monday, May 23, 2005

Horrible, no good, very bad weekend.

What hasn't gone wrong the last few days? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. First, the crimson bitch came to visit on Saturday morning. So I'm not pregnant. On top of that, not only can I not ovulate on my own, I also have a ten day luteal phase. Fucking fabulous.

I managed to hold myself together pretty well during the day on Satuday - M and I had a round of golf planned, it was a decent day, and I was managing not to think too much. Then, we went over to my sister's for a belated mother's day dinner for my mom... at 18 weeks she's definitely showing (my sister, not my mom), which makes it a lot harder to ignore. I go into the bathroom to collect myself. Sittin' on the hopper, I see a black mark on my leg. So I go to wipe it off, and whadda ya know - it's got legs and it's stuck to me. I picked up a fucking tick playing golf. So M took a quick look on the net to figure out what to do, and pulled the thing out with tweezers. GROSS!!!

At least I could have a bottle of wine.

Yesterday, my friend who had her ET the same day I had my IUI found out she's pregnant!!! I'm *totally* thrilled for her, she was only going to do the IVF this one time... but just as with my sister, we were hoping to get pregnant together. So basically, all you need to do if you want to get pregnant is go through a cycle with me. So far I'm two for two. Any takers? Step right up. Of course, that's not going to be happening for a while:

Day 3 ultrasound this morning. Four fucking huge cysts. One on the right, 26mm. THREE on the left, 26, 20 and 19mm. So not only can I not ovulate, have a short luteal phase, I also make really beautiful cysts. So no cycle this month. And to think last night I was looking at the calendar, and wondering if I wouldn't be able to make my graduation ceremony because we'd be doing another IUI.

Fuck checking the calendar to figure out potential due dates - I'm getting disappointed just planning ahead on when I might try to get pregnant.

I think I need to pick me up a pair of sweatpants.


Susan / holdingpattern said...

So sorry about everything. I hope you at least enjoyed that bottle of wine.

Molly said...

Shit, shit, shit. Bleeding like a mo fo, then add an insect to your leg, just to add a cherry to the top of your crap sundae. I'm so sorry about that, the cysts, the showing sister, etc. Just sucks.

Drink. Lots.

Suz said...

I'm sorry too, Nico. My sister's pregnant as well, so I know how it feels. Take care of yourself. Enjoy that wine!

Caroline said...

Sorry about your bad day. I know how those go. To answer the question you left on my site ~ I am pretty sure that I am ovulating because after two years of irregular cycles I finally have 28 day ones ~ I used OPKs for the first two regular months and they indicated a surge mid-cycle and this tracked with my other symptoms and my Leutal Phase (LP) which has always been 14 days. Anyway - to make a log story short - I am not 100% sure I am ovulating now but pretty darn sure. Three months on clomid and the acupuncture seem to have done the trick. Now I just everything else to work. I am enjoying reading your site thanks for the link to mine!!

Ova Girl said...

Bugger, bum, tit and a myriad of other bad bad words.

Very very sorry. And that tick on top of everything else? That's just wrong.

WonderMama said...

I'm so sorry. What a terrible, terrible weekend!
I'm sorry about the cysts too. Forced rest cycles suck.
But I think a 10 day luteal phase is long enough to not be considered a luteal phase defect. If it is a problem, it might only be a mild one. You might think about trying Vitex to help lengthen it a bit. Did you have your progesterone checked this cycle?

(Sorry for the assvice. As per the Infertile's Code, please tell me to piss off if necessary)

Lisa said...

I'm so sorry about the bad news. I know how disappointed you are, and I feel for you.