Wednesday, August 24, 2011

All still well. Supposedly.

Had my first ultrasound yesterday.

Immediately saw a big black blob in my uterus = good.

Doc then went to check my ovaries - still somewhat enlarged, but not bad, and a nice corpus luteum on each side.

Back to big black blob. Only one = good.

My heart sank though, because that was all I saw so i thought it was a blighted ovum or something.

But, when doc zoomed in, he claimed he could see the yolk sac and fetal pole, and even measure the crown-rump length which was 5w5d, so right where it should be (theoretically 5w6d according to ER date).

I saw some white shmutz, but I guess if he says it was a yolk sac and fetal pole I should probably believe him.

No hb. I *know* it's early. But we did see one at 5w6d with A, so in my heart of hearts I was expecting to see it, despite telling everyone (and trying to tell myself) that I had no expectations going in.

It totally makes sense that we didn't see a hb - with my betas running three days behind where they were with A, I should really consider that I was 5w3d yesterday, which is WAAAAAY too early.

So theoretically everything is chugging along as it should be. And I started feeling a little queasy today, 6w exactly, which is right on schedule.

And in a way I think it's better that we didn't see a hb because if we don't when i go back next Thursday it won't be quite the same shock as if we did see one today and then it stopped.

so.

Trying to be zen. I know there is nothing that I can do to affect whatever the outcome will be so trying to just focus on other things and hope the time passes quickly.

5 comments:

Josey said...

Ohhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........

Keep in your zen mode honey. You know it was early to hear a HB. I can't wait to read your joyful post next week b/c you've seen that awesome flicker on the screen!

Susannah said...

I am no expert but I think there must be good reason that docs (and REs) usually wait until after 6 weeks to schedule u/s. It will be okay! Will be thinking of you next week.

♥ JAM said...

*hugs*
Zen zen zen zen.
I am thinking good thoughts for you, and thinking of you!

-Jam

Rebecca said...

Yea for the queasiness. I know it's disappointing not to have seen a heartbeat, but I'm sticking with the thought that it was just too soon. And hoping that the next 7 days pass quickly for you.

Ceejay said...

We couldn't even see any yolk sac at about 5w4d. I think you're right where you should be! I hope the queasies are just enough to reassure you but not make you miserable.