Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Top ten things I HATE

1. I hate the Crimson Bitch, Aunt Flo, Maroon 5... by any name.
2. I hate that none of my "friends" who know what's going on with me ever call to ask how I'm doing.
3. I hate that my sister had an easy time getting pregnant, an easy pregnancy, an easy delivery - I feel like that means ALL of it is going to suck for me.
4. I hate that I feel that way.
5. I hate that I'm always the one to call my friends to get together, they never call ME.
6. I hate stupid nurses who don't understand my situation and tell me that if I wanted to do another IUI I wouldn't be able to do IVF until March. Idiot.
7. I hate doctors with a set spiel who leave no space between their sentences for me to ask qusetions.
8. I hate that we have to see a social worker before we can do IVF, because M hates it.
9. I hate that despite all the support I get from you guys, I still feel so lonely
10. Did I say that I hate the Crimson Bitch?


Laurie said...

Aw, Nico, I'm so sorry. So so sorry. All I can say is I've been there and I cringe with pain for you.

They make you see a social worker before you do IVF? Love the double standard when any crack whore can have a baby. (Don't get me started on my rampage!)

thalia said...

I couldn't agree more. And what is it with our friends? I left a vmx for one friend a couple of days ago saying things weren't going well and was she up for going to a movie and she hasn't called me back!

I hate that you have to see a social worker too. It's so unfair. Hopefully they'll be nice.

pixi said...

Oh, that stinks. It makes me so sad to read about your disappointment and despair. I'm so sorry, Nico.

elle said...

Damn, that is harsh. A social worker, wtf?? So sorry you are feeling so down, can totally understand it. I broke up w. most of my friends, & my last great one just moved to Cali. :( Do something nice for yourself, sweetie.

Pamplemousse said...

Nico, it is just like here where your GP has to certify you fit to have a child by IVF. I am sure it will just be a formality for you. Feel better soon, sweetie.

April said...

I am so incredibly sorry Nico. I don't know what's worse, the loneliness, or the hurt of another cycle.

I am so sorry.

Ova Girl said...

Shit Nico, I'm so sorry.

fisher queen said...

Oh I hear you! Why don't friends call, or understand? It just makes me feel more lonely. I hear you on the docs, and on everything else. I cannot believe you have to go to a social worker. "Approved" reproduction is an ugly, dangerous concept.

Katie (WannaBeMom) said...

Nico Nico-- that list could be the definitive list for me. I have one friend who calls me consistently, but otherwise, I was just griping about this in my head this morning. I am so sorry.

Mari said...

Nico - I hear you about being alone, I talk to many of my internet buddies, but it is only when I log on. The other times I feel as you do...alone.
I get you, I really do. Look after yourself and I'm sorry about how you feel.

Alexa said...

Oh...all too familiar, this list. I am so sorry--all of the rest of it would be bad enough without the feeling alone bit, but the feeling alone, especially, seems to make everything else less bearable. I shall be thinking of you.

Jenn said...

Why on earth do they make you see a social worker first? That seems really unfair.